Randomness

I started the evening actually updating my blog. Actually following the blogs that I have been already reading and putting them on my dashboard so that it makes life a whole lot easier. So here I am adding blogs and catching up on some that I have not read in a while. Then I added Here I am.... I read her most recent post and I stopped adding. I then spent the next few hours lost here.
I so badly want to be able to help each and everyone of these beautiful children. My heart is hurting tonight.
The really ironic part is that lately I have been feeling that God is moving me away from adopting. I actually have stopped reading most of my adoption blogs that I was scouring and settling into my new life. (The life where we actually do not adopt any children that is). Then I find this site and I am lost again.
How can I not want to help at least one of these beautiful children? How can I not want to be able to make at least one life somewhere somehow better.
I realize that financially right now that this is possibly out of the question. I also realize that neither my hubby nor I are spring chickens. However that doesn't stop my heart.
So now I ask for prayer.
Prayer that God leads myself and my hubby in the direction that we are supposed to go and that whichever way it is he helps prepare our hearts for what lies ahead.