I have an addiction to food.
Yep, I love it!!! I want it way too much. I use it for comfort. I use it for celebration. I use it for justification. I use food.
I am overweight. Way too much overweight. I makes me sad to look in the mirror and I have become a pro at not actually looking at my body. Instead focusing on my hair or my clothes.
I have dieted in the past to not avail and also exercised in the past. Just when I started to look and feel better I either got sick or my life got busy enough that I neglected that part of me and voila here I am again.
I promise myself that this year will be different. I am going to lose these pounds, these inches. But then something happens and there goes that. I did say I use food as a comfort right?
I often am sick after meals. Not making myself sick but I get diarrhea way too much. So I decided to do some research and find out what could be causing it. After all not necessarily could all the foods be tied together. I would have dairy one time and be sick, the next be perfectly fine. So google I went. I found out that a person could have a gluten allergy without being celiac. When I researched the gluten allergy more, I found I have A LOT of the symptoms. The thing that they suggested I do is quit all my glutens for 8 weeks. Yep you heard right 8 WEEKS!! That is along time when I love my food, all food. (homemade cinnamon buns, pasta, chocolate bars, granola bars, etc) But I decided it was worth a try.
So this is week 3. Other than one time I have not had a reaction. However this is so hard. I miss some things so much. I can not wait for a time for me to stop craving it. Now keep in mind I do not know that I have a gluten allergy for sure, I am just trying to find out.
Wow what a ramble I went on. Sorry. I guess it just goes to show how heavy (pun intended) this is.
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