Well it sure has been a while since I have wrote about this. I am not sure why although I think someone has been trying awful hard to prevent me from furthering my walk.
Things have been so tumultuous here. I mean on the surface it all looks good. Rob and I are still doing really well as a couple even though the stress of finances are getting stronger. Our kids are doing fantastic and everything is moving along as it should be on the foster to adopt front.
However it's me.
I am in turmoil.
I am a the edge where I need to push farther on my walk. I need to shout it out just how much I love the Lord.
Yet something holds me back.
I fear...
I fear losing friends.
I fear discrimination.
I fear disappointment. Me disappointing others.
I fear what it means to completely follow Him.
I am a cross roads.
I have been here many a time before and I always turn back to.
I want to push on.
I desire to push on.
I WANT to grow stronger in my walk.
I NEED that deeper relationship with God.
I have an amazing support group with my Good Morning Girls.
Without that group I would be lost.
I would be right back where I started.
I also have you guys. My readers.
I value your input.
I love hearing your comments.
I love to be able to sit down and write something from the heart and know that it is being heart and maybe just maybe has touched someone else.
Do you ever feel that way?
I often wonder if I am the only one swinging around in the wind.
I am asking now if you would pray for me. Pray that I find the strength to grow.
Thank you.
I am linking up today with Mary Beth. Come over and encourage others in their journey.
Wednesday, 28 November 2012
Friday, 23 November 2012
Chilly walk closer to the finish end
This week the temperatures have dropped. Last night we were -25C before the wind chill. It makes for mighty chilly evenings. These are the nights I just want to stay home cuddled before the fireplace with a good movie. But alas we were out and about for dance. Oh well pretty normal around here.
As for my 3 in 30 this week, it was another fairly productive week.
As for my 3 in 30 this week, it was another fairly productive week.
1. Totally and completely clean my kitchen. The walls need washed, the cupboards need cleaned out and sorted through. I have 2 pantry cupboards in the hallway that I want to condense down into one. Oh yea and the ceiling needs washed as well. LOL
I'm completely done this!! I love walking into my kitchen and knowing that it so clean. Well if I could manage to always keep the counters clean it would be. Hahahaha.
2. I would love to get all or at least most of my Christmas shopping/making down this month. I have some gifts I am making and I really want to get all the other stuff bought. I would love to focus on the meaning behind the holiday during the month of December. I know I probably will not get my baking done and I am totally ok with that. Something for Sarah and I to bond closer with in December. :)
I went out Wednesday night Christmas shopping and I got tons done. I still need to make a few gifts and buy about 5 more but then I will be finished. I am hoping this one will all be done by next weekend. Next Friday Sarah leaves for Calgary to do Christmas shoe boxes so Friday I will be sewing up a storm. I need to sew 3 blankets, some pj pants and a scarf. It will be busy but she leaves about 7:30 am and I have no where to be that day so I should manage to get most of it done.
3. Our spare room. This needs cleaned out in the worst way. This will be the room that our foster children go into and possibly our future children. (SQUEAL) I really want to get this done by December 1rst so that hopefully we can get our home inspection started then. Fingers crossed.
Getting closer on this one as well. I can hardly wait until next week and I can hopefully post pictures of a clean room. Fingers crossed that I can finish this one. It needs to be completely done by December 7 as both our foster care worker and our adoption care worker are coming out for the first part of the home inspection. Getting nervous.
We are going to have a busy weekend. Tomorrow Sarah has dance practice in town and then Rob and I got invited out with friends. Sunday both Sarah and I work at the church and then I am hoping to be able to get the tree up and it's Grey cup. That means at kick off I better have the appies out and enjoy some football with my hubby.
I hope you all have a great and safe weekend.
I am linking up today with Aurie.
Monday, 19 November 2012
The odd couple
This past weekend we were at friends for a early Christmas party.
It was fun and a ton of laughs were shared, even though our hostess was sick.
However I noticed that night something that I have been noticing a lot more lately.
I noticed that my hubby and I are rare.
Wait a minute. I don't mean as rare as in meat rare.
I mean rare as in hard to find.
Again we are right here.
Ok, ok I digress. LOL
What I am trying to saying is we have a rare marriage.
We love to be together.
We miss each other when we are apart, even if it is only for a day or so.
I love laying down in bed and having him beside me. (even if he is snoring like a freight train)
I love that he wants to cuddle or that he wants to have me beside him.
I love looking at him.
I love the way he makes me feel.
I appreciate him so much.
Yet when I look around me even starting right with my immediate family I realize that we are a rare couple. My parents fight on a regular basis. My sister's complain about their husbands, my friends about their spouses.
Now don't get me wrong we can disagree with the best of them. There are times when he drives me batty and I AM positive that I do the same to him.
But yet over all I let the small annoyances go and just enjoy him. Since he hasn't throttle me yet I will assume he does the same thing. LOL
This is also not to say that we haven't had our difficulties cause of boy have we more than have had our share.
We have had pre-marriage pregnancy.
We have had 3 miscarriages.
We have had separations.
We have had where he has had to be away for work for weeks at a time.
We did that for years.
We were married when I was 19 and he was 20.
We were way too young.
We made stupid mistakes.
Yet through it all we managed to make it work out.
We have choose to stay together.
I chose him everyday. Every hour, every minute.
It's an easy chose.
We have more than love.
We also have compatibility.
I want to do things with him. Even if I didn't/don't understand/enjoy his interests. Little did I know some of them would fast become my greatest interests.
We have made it work, and let me tell you sometimes it is work. However like any work well done, the rewards are boundless.
I am happy that I am in a rare marriage.
I am thrilled that we have and still are beating the statistics.
I can express enough how much I am ecstatic that we are spending our life together.
I am sad for those that are not as happy or who are just living in their marriage, not thriving in it.
I thank God that I am not one.
It was fun and a ton of laughs were shared, even though our hostess was sick.
However I noticed that night something that I have been noticing a lot more lately.
I noticed that my hubby and I are rare.
Wait a minute. I don't mean as rare as in meat rare.
I mean rare as in hard to find.
Again we are right here.
Ok, ok I digress. LOL
What I am trying to saying is we have a rare marriage.
We love to be together.
We miss each other when we are apart, even if it is only for a day or so.
I love laying down in bed and having him beside me. (even if he is snoring like a freight train)
I love that he wants to cuddle or that he wants to have me beside him.
I love looking at him.
I love the way he makes me feel.
I appreciate him so much.
Yet when I look around me even starting right with my immediate family I realize that we are a rare couple. My parents fight on a regular basis. My sister's complain about their husbands, my friends about their spouses.
Now don't get me wrong we can disagree with the best of them. There are times when he drives me batty and I AM positive that I do the same to him.
But yet over all I let the small annoyances go and just enjoy him. Since he hasn't throttle me yet I will assume he does the same thing. LOL
This is also not to say that we haven't had our difficulties cause of boy have we more than have had our share.
We have had pre-marriage pregnancy.
We have had 3 miscarriages.
We have had separations.
We have had where he has had to be away for work for weeks at a time.
We did that for years.
We were married when I was 19 and he was 20.
We were way too young.
We made stupid mistakes.
Yet through it all we managed to make it work out.
We have choose to stay together.
I chose him everyday. Every hour, every minute.
It's an easy chose.
We have more than love.
We also have compatibility.
I want to do things with him. Even if I didn't/don't understand/enjoy his interests. Little did I know some of them would fast become my greatest interests.
We have made it work, and let me tell you sometimes it is work. However like any work well done, the rewards are boundless.
I am happy that I am in a rare marriage.
I am thrilled that we have and still are beating the statistics.
I can express enough how much I am ecstatic that we are spending our life together.
I am sad for those that are not as happy or who are just living in their marriage, not thriving in it.
I thank God that I am not one.
Friday, 16 November 2012
1 done!!
It has been a interesting few weeks around here as I am sure you can tell from my lack of posts. I have just been in a funk and have had no real desire to connect with the outside world.
However during that time I have been really busy at home.
1. Totally and completely clean my kitchen. The walls need washed, the cupboards need cleaned out and sorted through. I have 2 pantry cupboards in the hallway that I want to condense down into one. Oh yea and the ceiling needs washed as well. LOL
DONE!!! DONE!!! DONE!!! I am so happy about this!! Finally every cupboard is cleaned.Ceiling is done, floor was swept and then hand washed so the baseboards were also cleaned. Oven is done, Fridge is cleaned. All in all it looks great!!
2. I would love to get all or at least most of my Christmas shopping/making down this month. I have some gifts I am making and I really want to get all the other stuff bought. I would love to focus on the meaning behind the holiday during the month of December. I know I probably will not get my baking done and I am totally ok with that. Something for Sarah and I to bond closer with in December. :)
Not a lot done on this. I have 3/4 of a Christmas list from one boy and one gift from another. So this one has been pretty stagnant.
3. Our spare room. This needs cleaned out in the worst way. This will be the room that our foster children go into and possibly our future children. (SQUEAL) I really want to get this done by December 1rst so that hopefully we can get our home inspection started then. Fingers crossed.
Well I have actually been tackling this room now. We can actually walk in there. That is huge. We still have tons to go through but I am not overly worried. Although we actually have our social workers coming out on December 7th so it has to be done by then. Plus the house has to be kid-friendly by then as well. So we need to get a move on. LOL
Tomorrow we are off to friends for an early Christmas party. I am so looking forward to it.
What about you? Do you have big plans for this weekend??
I am linking up today with Aurie. Come encourage some other 3 in 30 ers. LOL
Friday, 9 November 2012
Step by step
What a week it has been.
Wednesday we had a snowstorm. Not near as bad as a couple hours east of us, but we had rain which turned to snow (about 4-6 inches) which made a huge mess of things. Thankfully dance was cancelled that day so we got to stay home and not try and venture out.
Yesterday hubby and I went in for our physicals. Right day this time. :) It all looks good. Our doctor spent two seconds filling out and signing our paperwork and then handed it back to us. We are really lucky as he never charged us a dime and it could have cost us upwards of $400. Happy happy campers we were.
So then off to social services to drop off our doctor forms and our forms that both of us had to fill out. We are getting closer and closer!!!
Well I actually didn't have to bad of a week goal wise.
1. Totally and completely clean my kitchen. The walls need washed, the cupboards need cleaned out and sorted through. I have 2 pantry cupboards in the hallway that I want to condense down into one. Oh yea and the ceiling needs washed as well. LOL
The ceiling is washed and 3/4 of the cupboards are gone through and cleaned and re-organized. I also cleaned out the fridge and cleaned the oven. That was a bit of an undertaking to get that oven sparkling. However now it is done and supper is cooking away in it.
I am hoping to finish this early next week. I know when hubby is off for the weekend we will be focusing on other things.
2. I would love to get all or at least most of my Christmas shopping/making down this month. I have some gifts I am making and I really want to get all the other stuff bought. I would love to focus on the meaning behind the holiday during the month of December. I know I probably will not get my baking done and I am totally ok with that. Something for Sarah and I to bond closer with in December. :)
I read this blog this week and I thought what an amazing idea. First things are a bit more financially tricky with Rob's new job. Plus we are trying to save up for a few big purchases and plus now that the boys are out of the house we are having a harder and harder time trying to decide what to buy them.
So I talked to Rob and he thought it was a good idea. I changed it up a bit. So we have asked for a list of 4 things each from these 4 categories.
Something you want...
Something you need...
Something to do...
Something to wear...
I let them know we would only be getting them 4 gifts out of that. I am also making each of them a gift this year so I will actually be 5.
I know this is going to save us soooooo much. So much time, so much energy and so much wasted gifts. I would also like to say to give me something that they would like a donation to. Then we would make a donation in their name. I will be asking Rob about that one as well.
3. Our spare room. This needs cleaned out in the worst way. This will be the room that our foster children go into and possibly our future children. (SQUEAL) I really want to get this done by December 1rst so that hopefully we can get our home inspection started then. Fingers crossed.
Never even worked on this one at all. I am kinda hoping that this being a long weekend I will be able to convince hubby to help me on the room this weekend but we will see. I know he also wants to work on the shed and being as how that will also benefit me, well I will be helping with that as well.
So what have you got planned for this weekend? Between the bedroom, shed and hanging out I would also really like to get my windows covered in plastic so that it will stay warm in my house this winter. Other than that, also hoping to sneak in a date night. :)
I am linking up today with Aurie. Please take a moment to go and encourage some other ladies this week.
Wednesday we had a snowstorm. Not near as bad as a couple hours east of us, but we had rain which turned to snow (about 4-6 inches) which made a huge mess of things. Thankfully dance was cancelled that day so we got to stay home and not try and venture out.
Yesterday hubby and I went in for our physicals. Right day this time. :) It all looks good. Our doctor spent two seconds filling out and signing our paperwork and then handed it back to us. We are really lucky as he never charged us a dime and it could have cost us upwards of $400. Happy happy campers we were.
So then off to social services to drop off our doctor forms and our forms that both of us had to fill out. We are getting closer and closer!!!
Well I actually didn't have to bad of a week goal wise.
1. Totally and completely clean my kitchen. The walls need washed, the cupboards need cleaned out and sorted through. I have 2 pantry cupboards in the hallway that I want to condense down into one. Oh yea and the ceiling needs washed as well. LOL
The ceiling is washed and 3/4 of the cupboards are gone through and cleaned and re-organized. I also cleaned out the fridge and cleaned the oven. That was a bit of an undertaking to get that oven sparkling. However now it is done and supper is cooking away in it.
I am hoping to finish this early next week. I know when hubby is off for the weekend we will be focusing on other things.
2. I would love to get all or at least most of my Christmas shopping/making down this month. I have some gifts I am making and I really want to get all the other stuff bought. I would love to focus on the meaning behind the holiday during the month of December. I know I probably will not get my baking done and I am totally ok with that. Something for Sarah and I to bond closer with in December. :)
I read this blog this week and I thought what an amazing idea. First things are a bit more financially tricky with Rob's new job. Plus we are trying to save up for a few big purchases and plus now that the boys are out of the house we are having a harder and harder time trying to decide what to buy them.
So I talked to Rob and he thought it was a good idea. I changed it up a bit. So we have asked for a list of 4 things each from these 4 categories.
Something you want...
Something you need...
Something to do...
Something to wear...
I let them know we would only be getting them 4 gifts out of that. I am also making each of them a gift this year so I will actually be 5.
I know this is going to save us soooooo much. So much time, so much energy and so much wasted gifts. I would also like to say to give me something that they would like a donation to. Then we would make a donation in their name. I will be asking Rob about that one as well.
3. Our spare room. This needs cleaned out in the worst way. This will be the room that our foster children go into and possibly our future children. (SQUEAL) I really want to get this done by December 1rst so that hopefully we can get our home inspection started then. Fingers crossed.
Never even worked on this one at all. I am kinda hoping that this being a long weekend I will be able to convince hubby to help me on the room this weekend but we will see. I know he also wants to work on the shed and being as how that will also benefit me, well I will be helping with that as well.
So what have you got planned for this weekend? Between the bedroom, shed and hanging out I would also really like to get my windows covered in plastic so that it will stay warm in my house this winter. Other than that, also hoping to sneak in a date night. :)
I am linking up today with Aurie. Please take a moment to go and encourage some other ladies this week.
Friday, 2 November 2012
Movember
Yesterday was the start of hunting season around here and something called Movember. If you are not familiar with it, basically many men shave their faces November 1rst and let it grow all month long. Many raise funds for prostate cancer.
I teased hubby yesterday about shaving his mustache off. (He has only shaved it off about 3 times in the 22 years I've know him) Low and behold he does. It is kinda weird looking at a face I know and love so much and it has so drastically changed. Really weird kissing him without it as well. However I still love every square inch of him, mustache or no. LOL
Anyway today is the start of a new month of goals. I gave a ton of thought to what I wanted to do this month and this is what I came up with.
I am so hoping to get this all done this month.
1. Totally and completely clean my kitchen. The walls need washed, the cupboards need cleaned out and sorted through. I have 2 pantry cupboards in the hallway that I want to condense down into one. Oh yea and the ceiling needs washed as well. LOL
2. I would love to get all or at least most of my Christmas shopping/making down this month. I have some gifts I am making and I really want to get all the other stuff bought. I would love to focus on the meaning behind the holiday during the month of December. I know I probably will not get my baking done and I am totally ok with that. Something for Sarah and I to bond closer with in December. :)
3. Our spare room. This needs cleaned out in the worst way. This will be the room that our foster children go into and possibly our future children. (SQUEAL) I really want to get this done by December 1rst so that hopefully we can get our home inspection started then. Fingers crossed.
I wanted to share the pics of the room so that I could be held accountable for it. I maybe just maybe will share pics of the kitchen next week. LOL
Hopefully by the end of the month this room looks amazing and empty. :)
I am linking up today with Aurie
I teased hubby yesterday about shaving his mustache off. (He has only shaved it off about 3 times in the 22 years I've know him) Low and behold he does. It is kinda weird looking at a face I know and love so much and it has so drastically changed. Really weird kissing him without it as well. However I still love every square inch of him, mustache or no. LOL
Anyway today is the start of a new month of goals. I gave a ton of thought to what I wanted to do this month and this is what I came up with.
I am so hoping to get this all done this month.
1. Totally and completely clean my kitchen. The walls need washed, the cupboards need cleaned out and sorted through. I have 2 pantry cupboards in the hallway that I want to condense down into one. Oh yea and the ceiling needs washed as well. LOL
2. I would love to get all or at least most of my Christmas shopping/making down this month. I have some gifts I am making and I really want to get all the other stuff bought. I would love to focus on the meaning behind the holiday during the month of December. I know I probably will not get my baking done and I am totally ok with that. Something for Sarah and I to bond closer with in December. :)
Hopefully by the end of the month this room looks amazing and empty. :)
I am linking up today with Aurie
Thursday, 1 November 2012
November, snow and yet so thankful
We have snow, freezing rain and ice pellets today. Let I am so thankful
Hubby and I headed into the city which is about a 45 minute drive for medicals today, (for our foster to adopt paperwork), only to find out that I had the dates wrong and it is actually next Thursday that we were supposed to be there. Oops. I don't think I was too popular.
However I am still thankful.
I am thankful that yesterday my beautiful daughter and I took some time and carved pumpkins together.
I am thankful that we made great memories, laughed and played around together.
I am thankful that when I had to be in town for dance, hubby was able to make it home to help with the kids coming to the door.
I am thankful that although I messed up on the date for the doc appointments. My handsome hubby and I got to spend some rare time together. I even managed to buy some fabric for Christmas presents.
I am thankful that the roads were good this morning and afternoon. All around has terrible weather. Snow warnings and tons of freezing rain.
I am thankful this week for a wonderful phone call from a great Good Morning lady.
I am thankful that she is allowing to crash with her and another fantastic friend of mine for Break Forth!
I am thankful that piece by piece we are slowly inching closer to having our paperwork done so that the home inspection can take place.
I am thankful that we got winter tires and rims on my truck today. It cost a small fortune, but worth every penny. So looking forward to driving confidently on those roads again.
I have a great life and I am learning to be so grateful for it.
My mantra this week has been. For Him, Always for HIM!
I am linking up today with Lisa today.
Hubby and I headed into the city which is about a 45 minute drive for medicals today, (for our foster to adopt paperwork), only to find out that I had the dates wrong and it is actually next Thursday that we were supposed to be there. Oops. I don't think I was too popular.
However I am still thankful.
I am thankful that yesterday my beautiful daughter and I took some time and carved pumpkins together.
I am thankful that we made great memories, laughed and played around together.
I am thankful that when I had to be in town for dance, hubby was able to make it home to help with the kids coming to the door.
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| Yep I'm carving them in pj bottoms. :) |
I am thankful that the roads were good this morning and afternoon. All around has terrible weather. Snow warnings and tons of freezing rain.
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| Love the look of concentration on her face. |
I am thankful this week for a wonderful phone call from a great Good Morning lady.
I am thankful that she is allowing to crash with her and another fantastic friend of mine for Break Forth!
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| Must save those pumpkin seeds. We season and roast them. Huge hit in our family. |
I am thankful that piece by piece we are slowly inching closer to having our paperwork done so that the home inspection can take place.
I am thankful that we got winter tires and rims on my truck today. It cost a small fortune, but worth every penny. So looking forward to driving confidently on those roads again.
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| Sarah's is on the left, Angry birds is mine. |
I have a great life and I am learning to be so grateful for it.
My mantra this week has been. For Him, Always for HIM!
I am linking up today with Lisa today.
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