Today is our son's 21rst birthday. The night he came into the world was very similar to what the weather today was like. Cold, blowy and snowy. In fact the night before hubby and I went to go get some clothes from our house (we were staying at my sister's in town) and we had to go 4x4ing in the snow as we got stuck. Anyway I digress. Our healthy boy came into the world at exactly 2:32 am weighing in at 8lbs 7.5 oz.
He is now far from that weight. LOL We have had many ups and downs in our raising of this wonderful young man. Mostly during his teen years. We learned that he has some learning challenges and was diagnosed with ADD. However when I look at the man he has become I can not help but be filled with pride.
|This picture of my boys was taken this past August. Matthew is the one with the sunglasses on his head.|
So with all this wonderfulness of today you would think that I would be euphoric. I am sorta. It feels weird. He is spending the day with his girlfriend. Which is awesome. She is a really nice young lady and both Rob and I like her. However for the first time I will not see him on his birthday. My baby is growing into a man. I am not sure when that happened. What was I busy doing?? His girlfriend said the smallest innocent thing on Sunday. She told me she was baking him a cake. That should not mean much right? Except to me it did. It meant that he no longer is in need of me to do that for him. I now officially know what my Mother in law feels like. It kinda stings. I am really really happy for him. But for a moment I am taking a bit of time to weep for the boy we no longer have, even while I rejoice over the man that with God's help we raised.
Then to add a bit to my melancholy to day, I received news this morning that we didn't make the deadline to go to our foster to adopt parenting course this weekend. The next one is not until February. I am sad. I wanted to get this process on the road. Although I know this isn't the worst thing, it just feels like such a delay. Oh well not much we can do about it. In the mean time we will be busy getting all our paperwork done and our house ready so we can start with the home inspection process. That could take up to two months anyway so really if we have everything done by the parenting course we could still be on time for Feb/March possibly receiving some children.
So I guess it all boils down to asking for prayer. I am feeling a little weird during this season in my life.
Thank you so much.