This week has been a difficult one.
Monday was just sort of a bad day in this house.
I had to fight with Sarah to work on school work, which up until that day she has been loving. We were arguing, things just were not right. I got two phone calls, one from a friend whom is concerned that she may have lost another pregnancy and the other is from my sister informing me that our Mom will not be getting surgery as she is in too poor of health. This means unless she does a lot of physio she will be in a wheel chair from now on. Both of these phones calls were really hard for me.
The friend I feel so bad for her. She is a non-Christian and has no relationship with God. I am praying for her. However I can also really relate to her. I have been pregnant 6 times and only have 3 beautiful children here on earth with us. I know the utter heartbreak of losing one.
My mom however was really hard for me. I knew that she probably won't be getting the surgery but still to hear it confirmed was hard. I think like most every child that grew up in a healthy happy home, you hope that your parents are going to be healthy and live forever. To made fully aware that things are changing is sad for me.
Both Sarah and I have been off of our game this week.
The only things that have kept me from being completely crazy is my Kept Study and My Good Morning Girls group.
I can not say enough wonderful things about these ladies. All but one was a complete stranger to me a month ago, and even that one we have never met face to face. However now these group of ladies are friends and are there for me each and every step of the way.
The one thing that I think is rather interesting is that I questioned on whether or not I should do this study. I was already signed up to do the Hello Morning study and wasn't sure if I should attempt to do two. I am so glad I did. This was definitely God's hand in this.
God listened when I cried out that I NEEDED someone to talk to, someone to help me walk this walk.
He listened as I lay broken-hearted saddened that I was not able to fully connect with someone like this.
He was there for me. He knew what I wanted in a way that I needed.
He is always there for me.
I can always count on Him.
I linking up today with Mary Beth and Sam.