Wednesday, 19 September 2012

Wednesday's Walk

This week has been a difficult one.
Monday was just sort of a bad day in this house.
I had to fight with Sarah to work on school work, which up until that day she has been loving. We were arguing, things just were not right. I got two phone calls, one from a friend whom is concerned that she may have lost another pregnancy and the other is from my sister informing me that our Mom will not be getting surgery as she is in too poor of health. This means unless she does a lot of physio she will be in a wheel chair from now on. Both of these phones calls were really hard for me.
The friend I feel so bad for her. She is a non-Christian and has no relationship with God. I am praying for her. However I can also really relate to her. I have been pregnant 6 times and only have 3 beautiful children here on earth with us. I know the utter heartbreak of losing one.
My mom however was really hard for me. I knew that she probably won't be getting the surgery but still to hear it confirmed was hard. I think like most every child that grew up in a healthy happy home, you hope that your parents are going to be healthy and live forever. To made fully aware that things are changing is sad for me.
Both Sarah and I have been off of our game this week.
The only things that have kept me from being completely crazy is my Kept Study and My Good Morning Girls group.
I can not say enough wonderful things about these ladies. All but one was a complete stranger to me a month ago, and even that one we have never met face to face. However now these group of ladies are friends and are there for me each and every step of the way.
The one thing that I think is rather interesting is that I questioned on whether or not I should do this study. I was already signed up to do the Hello Morning study and wasn't sure if I should attempt to do two. I am so glad I did. This was definitely God's hand in this.
God listened when I cried out that I NEEDED someone to talk to, someone to help me walk this walk.
He listened as I lay broken-hearted saddened that I was not able to fully connect with someone like this.
He was there for me. He knew what I wanted in a way that I needed.
He is always there for me.
I can always count on Him.

I linking up today with Mary Beth and Sam.

8 comments:

  1. Praying for you. My Dad missed the surgery cut off by 11 days due to his age. It was hard to swallow and some days I'm still angry...but His hand was in it all. {{hugs}}

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    1. It's hard isn't Aurie. I am fairly close to my parents and although they are significantly elderly I still hurt at the thought of losing them. This just seems to be the first step I guess into excepting that they won't live forever. Silly I know, but me none the less.

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    1. Thank you Sam!! The bible studies are amazing!! Really in truly God's hand in this.

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  3. I'm so sorry, Sherri. I will keep your mom (and you) in my prayers. It doesn't matter their age-- the thought of losing them hurts nonetheless. :-( I will also pray for your friend. My husband and I have two angels in Heaven, so I know and understand that heartache.... I hope it gives you some peace knowing that there are many praying for you. Many blessings, Lisa

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    1. Thank you Lisa! I really do appreciate your prayers.

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  4. I love how He sends us just what we need when we need it. Especially the way He loves us through other people. Sounds like you are in the perfect group! Blessings!

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    1. It is so true isn't it!! I love looking back and marveling how God-breathed that particular thing that happened is. I love my group. :)

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